God has a plan for you.
God made you, every strand and fibre, every molecule and atom, and he put you together piece by piece with such care to make you as perfect as you are. He knows every inch of your body and mind because you are his masterpiece. But he didn't spend that much time, putting that much love into your creation for you to be a pretty thing to look at. No, you were made with a purpose.
I know this to be true, but as I lie in my bed- chocolates on my right, and my pinterest wedding board in front of me- I find it difficult to get up and embark on the beautiful journey that God has prepared for me.
I think we all know this feeling. There are so many possibilities of what you could do today. There are 24 hours that can be filled with so much, may it be a new adventure, or even getting to the laundry that has been piling up in the corner of your room for 3 weeks. You could be meet somebody new, you could phone your mom, or you could finally pick up that paintbrush and express yourself- if only you got up out of bed. Sometimes I stand still and wait for God to move me, to spring me into action like a doll that he's playing with, but I know that's not how he works. The Lord isn't a puppeteer, nor am I his puppet. In the Bible, God is always described as the Shepherd, our Father, and our Teacher, and for good reason. Yes, He leads us away from sin and into his loving arms, but he can't lead if we don't follow. God is trying to tell us which way to go, but we can't know the way if we don't listen.
This is where I end up feeling a little bit lost. I'm pretty certain (although you never know) that God won't be appearing to me as a burning bush or pillar of fire to tell me what decisions I'm supposed to make next, so where do I look? I don't know what I'm listening for, and I'm afraid that I'll not hear his desires above all the noise of my life. God speaks to us in many ways, and the other Christians that I know always seem to know how to interpret His message. I'm sure that over indulgence and pinning cute Mason jar vases probably isn't high on His list of important things for me to accomplish in my life, but the fear of failure and misdirection keeps me hiding under the covers.
Hindsight is definitely 20/20. Looking back over the past year, I can tell where God has been working in my life and pushing me towards one decision over the other, but I absolutely didn't see it at the time. And, I know that as I move closer to Him and work towards living more like Jesus, I will be changed in a way that encourages me to make decisions that fits into His plan for me, but in the mean time I would appreciate the guidance.
I don't know if I will ever truly be able to say that I hear God speaking to me, but I will continue to listen through the chatter and keep an open heart to his Word.
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